When I went to college, I met a beautiful, very bright girl named Bernita*. She was
from a small town, Hicksville, in Southwestern Ontario and came from a very conservative,
bible-believing family. She and her room-mate wandered around campus together, laughing, teasing, and having a good time.
I never got to know Bernita real well, but we did have a late night chat or two, and I
found out that she didn’t believe in God. She didn’t think the idea of God made
any sense. But she didn’t tell this to anyone else and she went on with her theology,
sociology, history, and introductory psychology courses at this Christian College as if
she was a believer.
Bernita had a boyfriend back home. You know what usually happens with those
relationships, of course. The girl goes off to college, broadens her horizons, meets a lot
of new, bright men, and, before you know, it’s "Dear Ralph…".
Well, that didn’t happen this time. Not exactly. Bernita was interested in this
one guy with long hair but it didn’t work out. She went home at the end of the second
semester unattached. By the end of the summer, Bernita was pregnant. She ran off to
British Columbia. Then she returned to Hicksville to face the music. Standard procedure in
conservative Christian communities? She married the guy. She never went back to college.
It’s twenty years later: she still lives in the same small town, with her five
children. She is a stay-at-home mother. She is involved in the PTA and stuff like that.
Her oldest child is already in college himself. I don’t know if she believes in God
now or not, but she goes to church and she sends her children to the Christian school.
So you’re eighteen and you’re beautiful and you’re smart and you’re
500 miles away from home, living in one of the great cities of North America, with
it’s blues bars and great restaurants, and the fabulous Art Institute, and Wrigley
Field, and the Sears tower. The whole wild and crazy world and a future of untold
experiences and insights opens up before you. You're frightened and
thrilled. But you go home one weekend for some stupid reason you give
in this one time (that part's a mystery to me: why?) And you end up spending your entire life in
some wretched little hick town in the middle of Ontario’s own Green Acres. My wife
says I’m too harsh, and that there’s nothing wrong with living your entire life
in a small rural community. I thought she was right for a while. What’s wrong with
Hicksville?
We lived in Hicksville ourselves for about 15 years. The trouble with Hicksville is
that after a while you really do forget that there is a broader horizon out there beyond
the dusty cornfields and windmills. You forget that people have different experiences of
different lives. You think you have made a reasonable judgment about things when you
reject certain possible alternatives, and forget that there are possibilities that you
haven’t even imagined.
Hicksville allowed malls to be built on the edge of town, and then, when stores in the
downtown area started to lose money and go out of business, demolished the only building
with architectural distinction and built another mall right downtown. That finished it
off. Now the mall itself is half-empty. That’s Hicksville: yesterday’s solutions
for the problems we will create tomorrow. The whole debate about this building, the former
city hall, featured a lot of ridicule about "preservationists" and their
granola-crunching ilk. Meanwhile, towns like Stratford and Oakville were thriving by
preserving their old buildings and renewing their city cores. How much do you want to bet
that in ten years, when that trend has run it’s course, Hicksville will just be
embarking on it?
Maybe it’s not fair, but I shed a little tear inside when I think of Bernita. I
wish she’d finished college and taken a job in Toronto or Vancouver and traveled a
little before she got married and settled down and had kids. But I bet that if I asked her
now if that would have been a good idea, she’d answer, "why?"
* The names have been changed to protect the innocent.
