Rant of the Week

At Seventeen

 

Janis Ian wrote "At Seventeen" in 1973, at the age of 22. She was already somewhat well-known for an earlier protest song, "Society's Child". "At Seventeen" -- it seems astonishing to me now-- became a huge hit, on the pops singles charts, eventually reaching #1.   Here's a bit of interesting trivia: Janis Ian appeared on the very first episode of "Saturday Night Live" and performed this song.

I don't know of any other song like it. How many singer-songwriters would write and perform these lines:


And murmur vague obscenities
To ugly girls like me, at seventeen.

About the same number as those who would write a song like "Donald and Lydia".

The song, if you're not familiar with it, is about the judgments teenagers make about each other, about "those of us with ravaged faces/lacking in the social graces", about excluding those who fall short-- those who are too short or clumsy for basketball, who never receive valentines, and never get to hear those "vague obscenities"-- the most rich and allusive line in the song. It is suggested that the beauty queens will get their comeuppance:


So remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
In debitures of quality
and dubious integrity

The small town eyes will gape at you
In dull surprise when pain in due
Exceeds accounts received
At seventeen.

(What's a "debiture"?  I don't know.)

I'm not sure what that means. That the love you get for being beautiful is of "dubious integrity"?  Temporary? Transient? I thought the song would have worked better if the "small town eyes" were "gaping" at the wrecks of the lives of those who were excluded because of their "ravaged faces" and who found solace in other places, like drugs, self-abasement, whatever.  And I'm not sure that just because you're beautiful you can't have true love.

Either way-- "exceeds accounts received"-- is a clever line.  Either way, your punishment, your suffering will never be the amount you deserve.   Oh how badly we want to cling to the idea that you do deserve what you get.  In almost all the movies about people with disabilities who overcome monumental obstacles to "succeed", the person with the disability is glamorized.   They are disabled, but beautiful, or charming, or peaceful and quietly stoic, like Michael Oher in "Blind Side".  They make you feel good because you tell yourself that you would have behaved decently to this poor, unfortunate soul. 

Would we behave as decently to unfortunate souls who don't have anything lovable about them?  Who don't agree to be the "canvas" upon which we paint our own virtue?

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